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This post will be image heavy. Contains nudity, creepy skeletons, and fail anatomy that will make your eyes bleed.

Quote that made me go GPOY

So you know when you read something (off of some blog, book, comic, manga, etc.) Sometimes they reflect you so much that it makes you cry. I read one today and felt teary about it.

"I don't have any subjects I'm strong in, nor do I have abilities I'm proud of."

I know I can do a lot of stuff, but really... I'm not good at anything. Sometimes I don't think I'd like it if I were to go to 3D, Video, or Web. I think I should go to something like, Illustration? But then again I'm not that proud of anything I've done. I don't even make that much illustrations to begin with? Man this is so confusing! Right now I'll just stick to 3D since that's where my interests are closest by BUT IDK REALLY WHAT FUTURE DO I EVEN HAVE OHGOD

These are the times where I hate myself for sucking at everything orz Everyone gets really great stuff by spending an hour or two or something. I spend a day on something and just completely... suck. No matter how hard I try it all seems to end up along the 50's and 60's it's like... why do I even bother taking so much time with these things? When I'll be getting the results I didn't want? Everyone else is so good and I'm just there sitting like a derp. It makes me feel extremely inferior.

On a brighter note... My program's thinking about making a digital painting major... I can't remember what exactly it's called but it's got to do a lot with Illustration. It's really weird how we get a few artsy classes but the majors available are only 3D web and video.. It makes sense to have an Illustration major as well I believe. Perhaps I can go back to it if ever they decide.. That way I won't be too confused with my future anymore. Why am I not good at anything?! kdjsnvkldsnsakjncakjaaafffffffffff

Also we're making a children's book for graphic design and I am pretty excite. I just have to come up with ideas. Would really love to do my own version Red Riding Hood but it's been done so many times that I don't know if I should still go with it. I thought fairy tales would just be easy. Or idk maybe in the end it'll just be Creepy-chan's everyday life or something. Anyone here have their favorite children's book illustrator? I'd love to research since I'm not sure about how to go with the drawing style...;;;

le sigh

I'll be escaping from everything else internet for now (except for dA since I mod some groups there and uh tumblr too maybe as it has the funniest shit ever) . I'll be posting here as... not much people follow me here so uhh yeah.. I'll blow everything here as I really need something to uh rant and like, put my thoughts on to.. I'm just really not good with telling people about how I feel. Actually no, I think it's just the.. starting of the conversation.. I hate starting depressing conversations as it usually ruins the mood and boy do I hate ruining moods... I guess I am just as distant as some of my friends. I'm such a hypocrite but sakcbnaslkbajlaaaaaaa orzorzorz Especially when it's these days when I just feel sad for no apparent reason. I don't want to worry nor bother anyone so.. yeah. I want to focus on school right now and getting enough sleep and eating properly. I haven't been getting the sleeping and eating well part and I feel I'm gonna get sick soon orz I can't afford to get sick so I'll... sacrifice my social/internet life for a while, if that makes sense.. Let's see how I do. I might go OMG SCREW THIS I'M GOING BACK in like a few days ahahaha but then yeah I'll do my best.. I'll miss my online buddehs but this might be for the best. For now anyway. Don't mind me ramblin.

Self Reminder

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